Tuesday, May 31, 2011


Poor baby HK had diarrhoea and today is the 6th day. Brought him to the PD on Monday and she diagnosed him as having stomach flu. HK also had the running nose and phlegmy cough.
Up until yesterday his diarrhoea was quite severe as he would poop almost immediately after he had drank his milk or taken his cereal. Dr Loke advised to feed him rice water or finely cooked porridge. I wanted to feed him freshly cooked porridge so I mixed the Bellamy brand rice cereal with some rice water and soft porridge rice. He seems to take it well and as the porridge had been well cooked the rice is very soft and could mixed very well into the rice cereal. I was feeding HK oatmeal previously as he had constipation then and oatmeal made his diarrhoea worse.
Today he had pooped watery stool once in the morning after milk.
I am still worried about him and hope he will recover soon and revert to his happy cheerful self soon.

Tuesday, May 24, 2011

first time...

Today is the first time I smacked hy once and on his shoulder/back. I really really lost my temper.
I never believe in hitting my child but i just lost it when I returned to the room and saw that hy has shaken hk's rocker roughly, causing hk to wake up from his sleep, despite telling him not to do so. It was not the first time he did this and usually i let it go after lecturing him. I didnt really had a hard time rocking hk to sleep but I am feeling very tired and hasnt been myself. Probably because I am down with flu, throat infection and slight cough. The night feedings and coping with two kids during the day had taken its toil on me. I suspect that I am also under stress from staying at home since the birth of hk and rarely going out for relaxation or enjoyment. The last time I had gone out for a date night with hubby was for our 3rd year wedding anniversary on 30 march.

Anyway,I had explained to HY why I had hit him after he stopped crying. He just kept quiet and listened. He did not apologise and neither did i ask for one.

Well during the day, HY would busy himself with throwing toys everywhere, taking things out frm the drawer and throwing them on the floor. Otherwise he would watch cartoon, play applications on my iPhone or nap for a while. If the weather is good, we'll visit the playground nearby and do some marketing at the supermarket. Hy is like an energizer bunny always moving, exploring, doing things with his hands around the house. I  wanted to teach him at home but it had been very difficult ever since i had hk.  I felt tired easily and overwhelmed by the kids everyday.

I was just thinking to myself should i decided not to send him for playgroup i should really sit down for 15 to 20 mins a day to do some activities with him. He is getting bored and frustrated too. But then again teaching him at home will be different from what was being taught in school.

Saturday, May 21, 2011

Looking back

While looking at HK's face as he was asleep, it suddenly occur to me how fast he had grown. It also brought back memories of the period where i was pregnant with HK and also with HY.

For HK, it was not a smooth pregnancy. Throughout the whole pregnancy, i was constantly having horror nightmares where i always dreamt that i was harmed or that i actually harmed someone. There was always alot of darkness and blood. I was always thinking to myself that the number of nightmares that i had during that period could easily exceed the number of nightmares or dreams that i had since i was a child.

I was also plagued with serious blocked nose, tightness of the stomach, bad migraines, headaches and heaviness at the cervix. I was also constantly feeling unwell (whole body aching / heaviness at the head or headaches) and there was a period in my 2nd or 3rd trimester that i was down with flu and severe blocked nose. I had to be absent from work for 2 whole weeks. I had to seek the help of my parents to care for HY as all i could do for the whole day was lie down on bed. It was the worst period of my life. 
I was very accident-prone too. I fell down twice; once at the pavement at the bus-stop near my home and the other time was at home.

During that period all i prayed for was the safe delivery of my second child and i count my blessings that HK was borned safe and sound. :)

In HY's case, the pregnancy was more uncertain. At 10 weeks' into the pregnancy, we almost lost him. My gynae detected that the sac was an irregular bean shape instead of a healthy round circular shape. I was put on 4 days' bed rest and on hormonal pills as i was heavily bleeding. I prayed and prayed for his safe delivery and that i could hold my first precious bundle of joy in my arms when he is due. My gynae said there was only a 50% chance of survival for my baby. And that was not all, after my pregnancy was stablised, i had terrible backaches, headaches and bad morning sickness. Occasionally i had frightening nightmares as well though not as horrifying as the nightmares that i had when i was pregnant with HK.

Now HY is 26 months old while HK is turning 7 months soon, its still a long way before they will become independent.
At times, when HY is mischievous and super active, i had to remind myself to have more patience for him telling myself that everyday is a new experience with my very precious children. I will truly treasure these periods where they still need me and I'll do my best to be a good mommy.

Royal Carribean Family holiday Cruise in Jan 2012

Yes!After much persuasion, I finally proceed to confirm the RC cruise for us as well as for my parents. As agreed with my hubby, i will fork out the money for my parents to join us on this holiday as i didnt felt it was fair for him to pay for everything since i became a SAHM  officially in March.

Anyways, for this holiday we will spend less than $2.5K for 4 adults and 2 kids exclude insurance and land excursions.

Im looking forward to this trip even though hubby said it was merely a change of place to care for the kids...>_<*.

Many updates

Been a while since I've posted. However much I wanted to, I could not find the energy to do so even though I know how important it is for me to record the happenings no matter how nitty gritty it is :)

Hy is getting more active by the days. Alot of things happened to him recently and I find myself struggling and fighting mental strain to bring up this precious son of mine.
I shouldn't talk about it as there are too many to touch on but it is indeed uphill tasks that many things happened between the last time I wrote and now. (Hy, if u r reading this now, and would like to know, I could tell u if my memory does not fail me). But I'm glad things had improved though he had started to be picky about food again and simply would not eat  something without nagging or coaxing from his granny or me. I do feel my life shorten each time I had to sit down with him to make sure he eats properly and not play with his food. Not sure if I had wrote about this but hy had also joined us in our bed since April. He had been having night tremors / crying hysterically at night for prolonged periods for whatever reasons that we know or may not know of. It had been getting on my nerves and eating into my patience. Now we are more or less used to having him sleep in with us and I actually liked to having him in our bed because I could feel a stronger bond with my son. But Of cos I don't feel like this every day especially when he would wake me up rudely after giving me a forceful kick at my waist or flung his fist on my chest.
We had also pulled him out frm half day childcare as he was unable to fit in and told us he's afraid of school. Teachers in school had assured us that he is doing fine but he would come home upset or super cranky. Hence, we put a stop to school for hy 2 mths after he started. Currently he's happier and we are considering putting him in a different sch next year when he's more ready. Hy fell ill again as i am typing this and his cough had became quite bad compared to last night. He will cough until he is awake. On one hand i am very upset with him because he doesnt listen when i ask him to drink more water but what does a 2 year old know what's good for him? It is an almost impossible tasks to get him to drink or try new food/drinks and every time he fell ill it is a mental torture and physically challenging for me (or us) to force feed him his medication. I hope he recover soon. Seems like his running nose is under control but his cough is getting from bad to worse.

Hk had passed the 6 months mark and also becoming more active with each day. We can see he is
a smart and curious little guy. His smiles and laughter is contagious. And he is always ready with a grin for me. I just love this little bundle of joy more with each passing day. Sometimes he'll laugh out loud at the sight of his kor kor HY and I'll wonder what is so funny. I had started him on Bellamy rice cereal on 1st may at exactly 6 mths old. He seems to take it quite well except it caused him to have constipation. So I went to get Healthy Times oatmeal cereal and prune juice for him as I heard it does helps with kids who are prone to constipation. Started him on 1 meal (2teaspoons) of rice cereal for the first week and increased it to twice daily at 1 tablespoon of oatmeal cereal per meal. Trying not to overfeed him. He seems to like the taste of oatmeal better as compared to rice cereal. I'm contemplating on getting a Phillips avent steamer blender but
thinking what I should do with it after hk is weaned off from puree foods after he turn one. I do not want to spend so much and then keep it as a white elephant. So I'm still considering whether I shld spend that money.

Our maid, Siti had been here for the 3rd month and I can see she is more or less settled in our home. Im not entirely pleased with some things she does, eg. the way she does things around the house and her high and mighty behaviour at times really got on my nerves. She also tend to rush through her tasks at times and thus does a sloppy job. I am particular when it concern hygiene issues eg uncleaned or oily milk teats and pacifiers. But I stopped telling her off and held my tongue because as sad as it seems we needed her around the house to help with the chores, cleaning of the house, cooking, watching after the kids and helping to pack work related stuffs at home for hubby. We are tolerating and trying our best to have another stranger in the house.
I just tell myself that I am going to endure her until her contract ends (if possible) and then I'll take over the household chores myself. Not sure if I can do it well but I rather have that than to put up with the attitude of a maid. For the sake of my kids, to ensure that they are entertained when I've to bathe or when I am occupied with one of the kids, I told myself I have to endure the inconvenience and frustrations of having a maid.

Recently been harbouring thoughts on a family holiday with my parents. Wanted to bring my own parents for a short cruise holiday with hubby and the kids. Frankly speaking going on a cruise can be expensive. For 4 adults and 2 kids, it can cost close to $3k but it is one of my wish to travel out of Singapore with my parents. I decided that our holiday to be on a cruise as the kids are young and it is near impossible to have the usual type of sightseeing/ shopping holidays.

I hope to spend more time with my parents as I know I had neglected them for so long. I only came to appreciate my parents after I got married and had to raise my own family. Only now I realized their hardship to raise us. Side track a little- Another wish for me is to travel to Taiwan with hubby for our second honeymoon after the kids are older but that will be another 'story'.